Happy Thanksgiving

We're going back home to celebrate the "thanksgiving". I am so excited to meet my family in-laws again.. go gambling with my mother in law.. yeehaw. One thing that I am excited is the snow there. Never been feel the coldness of a snow dropping from the sky. This is gonna be so fun.. maybe my husband will really throw me in the snow as what he just promised me. Well, we'll see.


naive??, immature??, unsophisticated???

They said a young love are --- so naive, so immature, so unsophisticated, yet so charming! some people judge you right away. Though they didn't even know what you've sacrifice just to fight for your love.. ay charott! So while I am bored facing my computer, I am starting to think something, maybe a song to sing or make a short poem for him.




I may young and silly,
funny, crazy, lazy or sissy missy;
Got married so early,
Because you hypnotized me when I was 20.

So what now? you cannot blame it on me;
I may not believe in destiny,
but at least I fight the love that I feel for thee.
I guess it's just serendipity found me =)

I don't know what else I can say...
I am exhausted and love to snore away!

Guilty Conscience

I did something I shouldn't and had a guilty conscience. I was on this blog doing something.. adding some stuff and when I'm about to drag it down, it wouldn't let me! Since my husbands computer is next to mine, I just used his and tried to fix my blog. But when I'm about to log in, (sigh) everything is gone.. what the heck!!!! all I can see is black. So, I reboot his computer and expecting that everything would come back but unfortunately rebooting didn't helped at all. I was waiting for more minutes until I can't help myself to worry about it. It drives me crazy, I broke a precious thing again that's not mine. I don't wanna owe a $1200 for this.. I shouldn't just touch his computer. Anyway, when I called him, something happened that obviously expected. Got scolded right away. And reminding me again "that's why we bought you an iMAC so that you can able to do everything you want and no need to use my computer." and blah blah blah (he got a gaming ASUS computer).. I know how it hurts you when somebody broke your personal thing/s but I didn't know that would happen. I feel so stupid! He bought his computer just recently, he worked for it so that he could afford. Plus it's not only 500 bucks computer... it was 1200.00 dollars that drives me crazy where I can get that money to buy a new one. OMG! I don't know what to do. I am praying he can fix it tomorrow. ggggrrrr that is why I hate Microsoft windows always got a problem about virusessss no matter how many virus protector you have.. holy sh*t! still won't work. GGGRRRRR why I didn't just mind my own business? why do i have to touch his??? ka hilabtanon juddddd

Finally Fall in Love...(story of my past)

I have a confession to make; I used to be a player.

Not to brag, but as a good looking, sales associate of GUESS? USA boutique in Cebu City, I was living what they called 'LIFE'. On any given night, you could find me in one of the hottest place where I am surrounded by drop-dead gorgeous man. One of them will get such a rush from buying drinks, flirting and getting my number. Some of this men I actually meet in the boutique and went on a few dates with, but there's no string attached neither a serious commitment.

The truth is, no man could hold my attention for very long because I knew that there was always a new, more attractive and exciting man just around the corner. And why should I get tied down when the world was filled with possibilities beyond my wildest imagination???

As they say, "don't hate the player... hate the game." I've turned into something like a player when my first boyfriend left me with no reason. That was so painful to me and I realize he's not the only guy in this world so why should I waste my tears for him?

I'll never forget the time I met Joshua. It was March 2008. I knew him through the website cherry blossom while I was in a relationship with Jayson that I also meet through
asian dating and singles. Jayson and I spent a week together while I was working but It feels like there is somethings missing and I don't know why. So when he go back to USA, we used to drop an email everyday... Honestly, my instinct kept bothering me like I have no assurance about my boyfriend so I logged in to cherry blossom to find new guys.

When I saw him online, I clicked his profile and he looked nothing like the man I normally hit on, he almost immediately caught my eye. At first I couldn't figure it out... by all guys online, Joshua is the youngest man whose online. He was only 35 while the rest are old. I can't blame myself for not liking man that so much older than me. I attempt to talk to him but he was quite busy so I didn't bother him at all but later on, he click my chat window and accepted it and we start talking then. From the moment we began talking, I knew something about this man was different. He was charming and sincere. And then the strangest feeling came over me-what was that egat? Oh yeah! how I wish he is my Jayson....

As my working schedule getting so hectic, I tried to get my 'GAME' back. As the month goes by, I am dating with another guy in person again, they just became my good friends. I hangout with them with my barkada also. But when the time I feel like I want a someone?! I mean someone that I can touch not only I can talk over the net, because Jayson on that time was already in the US. I registered to another site where I met R. He came over to Philippines and met me but he was so aggressive that really drives me crazy. I was so afraid to have an Intimate-relationship with him. Because I wasn't so sure to give my all to the man whose not willing to marry me yet. But he failed to get the thing that he really wanted? He left me on the next day. I wasn't able to overcome the obstacles so I run to the internet cafe' and talk to my online friend named Joshua. By that time, Joshua had a girlfriend Jing. Jing was just a fake, she used to pretend as a Nurse but really she wasn't a nurse according to Joshua. There are lots of things that happened to my past life... there was a time I got a stalker and etc. Joshua and I used to be good friends for 5 months. He call me often as he usually do. Eventhough, were just 'good friends' but he told me one time that he got a 'crush' on me.

When Joshua broke up with Jing, he left me an offline message on my ym, and I tried to comfort him,listening to him and that was the time we started getting to know more each other. After 3 years of playing the field dreading the idea of getting "tied down, I'd finally met the man who made me so crazy about him I couldn't imagine living another day w/o him. His confidence and attitude make me certain that, unlike other man, he will always hold my interest and keep things exciting in our relationship. I can't wait to see what each new day brings.




TWILIght (New Moon)

I finally watch this last night...i've been waiting for this to came out..and when we got to the theater the people there was just like having a big fiesta ever just b/c of the twilight. I'd never imagine that millions of people are addicted too.. i love it love it love it! I AM ADDICTED INTO IT!

LYK A BROKEN GLASS...

Tonight, I am wondering around while facing my computer and got nothing to do at all... But somehow it made me think and realize one thing I've learned about my life..“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

"After all you put me through, you'd think I'd despise you.. But in the end I wanna thank you 'cause you made me that much stronger!

-Christina Aguilera (song)
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Yes! I finally figure it out... God Bless everyone!

Reminds me of my mama..

As I sat on my computer while watching this show, I can't help my emotion as my tears rolls slowly down my cheek. A touching show that I can't pretend to myself not to cry... My god, it reminds me of my mother.. T_T Honestly, it's the song made me cry. What'a melodramatic!


I am a mama's girl but I didn't show it to her. I love her but I didn't express it enough. I care for her but I am too shy to show it and say it in front o' her. But I know she knew it. I've seen my mother worked hard for us. Carrying a tons of grasses for her animals, chasing her pigs that messing around, fixing the broken floor and wall, harvesting corn at neighbors farm. With all of this routine she made me so proud of her. For me, she's the best mother in the whole world. She may can't help us w/ our homework all the time back when I was in grade school, but she'd tried her best to become the best mother to her children. Dang it! I wanna go home so bad... can't help to miss her! ika nga "our mother is the sweetest and most delicate of all.. she knows more of paradise then angels can recall"...

"A WONDERFUL MOTHER"
GOD made a wonderful mother,
A mother who never grows old;
He made her smile of the sunshine,
And He molded her heart of pure gold;
In her eyes He placed bright shining start,
In her cheeks, fair roses you see;
God made a wonderful mother,
And He gave that dear mother to me =)


dinner @ Vino's

Yesterday was a busy day for me.. we went to Little Rock for my sss and after that we tried to find a Catholic Church since we failed last Sunday and I really felt bad b/c all of the churches there were close. What we did then, we decided just to go ahead to the restaurant where we gonna have a dinner with hubby's co-worker. Some of them I met not along time ago, some are not! And I enjoy their company, we had some drinks like different kinds of beer at Vino's. At first we tried the sampler then we order the one that we like. Then I finally met Tess. She is a wife of my hubby's manager. She's also a filipina. She seem so nice so I want to see her again some other time. And Vino's had a good pizza too, while we were busy drinking beers, some are busy eating pizza, we talked at the same time. I don't even know which side to listen... lol =) I really had fun though. And last but not the least picture is Steve. A nice friend and a co-worker of my husband at the time. He brought his two kids... and his eldest daughter just age like me. I tease him that I'm just like your daughter and he was terrified when I say that.... Anyway, it was my first time seeing Steve and Tess with Nelson. And this next week, were planning to have a dinner again @ Fulin's (chinese restaurant) in Little Rock with Kate and Dave. I am craving for sweet and sour chicken. It's one of my favorite chinese dish ever.

Lustily,
Egat

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All an eagle would really like, is a teapot!

Barcelona

It's my ULTIMATE DREAM to travel Barcelona, Spain. It would be nice to go there with someone you love... someday!


Everytime I played the song "yo te amo" can't help myself to go nuts! I don't know why!? Is it b/c of the language???? I've asked myself if that's really the reason why but I guess it's b/c it reminds me of BARCELONA! I know, I have to work hard so that I could afford to travel to Spain someday but when???? I am being so Ms. Impatient gggrrrr...